After My Miscarriage, I Sent the Fetal Specimen to His Mistress's Baby Shower

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I was four months into carrying my pup when my mate, Theron Ironmaw, brought another woman into our den. She was seven months along.

Sera, Corvina Thornveil was Fenris Greyfang's mate. He just passed during the rogue attack and left her and the pup with nothing. I couldn't turn my back on them. Don't worry, it's only temporary. Once she finds a pack willing to take her in, she'll move on.

I was too soft-hearted to say no. I never imagined "temporary" would stretch into two months.

At first, I didn't think much of it. Not until the night I rose from bed, restless with the ache in my lower back that came with carrying, and stumbled onto a scene that stopped me cold.

My mate. And his dead blood-brother's woman. Together by the window, where moonlight pooled across the floor like spilled silver.

Every drop of blood in my body turned to ice.

My wolf went utterly still inside me. Not a sound. Not a whimper. Just a silence so absolute it felt like something had died in the space between one heartbeat and the next.

I stood outside that door for three full hours. In that time, they went at it three times. His scent, that scorched iron and dry cedar bark, was tangled so thoroughly with her cloying honeysuckle-and-vanilla that I couldn't separate them. Couldn't find him in it anymore. The smell hit me in waves, each one worse than the last, and my wolf still made no sound. She had gone somewhere deep and dark and unreachable, curled in on herself like an animal that already knows the wound is fatal.

Watching Theron's face twist with pleasure, over and over, I felt my heart being carved open with a blade, one slow cut after another.

He hadn't touched me since I'd gotten pregnant. Said he was afraid of hurting the pup, that his wolf ran too close to the surface during intimacy and he couldn't risk it with me carrying.

But Corvina was nine months along now, and that hadn't stopped them. Not once. Not twice. Three times.

When Theron finally finished, it was five in the morning. A thin gray light was creeping through the curtains, and somewhere beyond the estate walls, a lone wolf howled at the fading moon. The sound threaded through me like a needle pulling grief behind it.

Corvina wouldn't let him leave. She stretched across the sheets, her swollen belly barely covered, and purred, "Theron, you're incredible. So much better than my late mate ever was. Thank you for giving me such an amazing experience."

"You're not bad yourself. Way more uninhibited than Sera."

A laugh scraped out of my throat before I could stop it. Bitter. Broken.

My wolf flinched at the sound of it. Or maybe I flinched. I couldn't tell where she ended and I began anymore.

Theron's head snapped toward the doorway. His nostrils flared, catching my scent, and I watched the color drain from his face in the space of a single breath. Corvina gasped and yanked the sheets over herself, her sweet-sick scent spiking with something sharp. Fear, maybe. Or performance.

"Oh my, it's Seraphina Silvercrest! She must have gotten the wrong idea. Theron, hurry, go explain things to her."

Theron pulled on a robe and stepped out. When he saw the tears streaked down my face, his brows drew together in a hard line. Not guilt. Not shame. Irritation. Like I was the problem. Like my grief was an inconvenience that had wandered into his hallway uninvited.

"It's the middle of the night. Why aren't you in bed? What are you doing out here?"

I stared up at him, unable to believe the words coming out of his mouth. My voice shook. "That's my question to ask, not yours. Theron, I'm carrying your pup. And while I was sleeping, you were in there with another woman. Have you no shame at all?"

The mating mark on my neck throbbed. It had been warm once, in the early years, a constant low pulse of connection that reminded me I belonged to someone and someone belonged to me. Now it burned. A dull, sick heat, like an infection spreading beneath the skin.

"Sera, don't overthink this. Corvina's mate is dead. She hasn't had any intimacy in a long time. I was just helping her out. It's perfectly normal, isn't it? Relax. There's nothing between us beyond this. You're my mate. You always will be." He softened his tone like he was coaxing a pup. "Be good. Don't get upset. It's bad for the little one."

His Alpha aura pressed against me as he spoke. Subtle. Practiced. That low-frequency hum of dominance he used when he wanted compliance without argument. I had bent under it a thousand times before. Tonight, something in me resisted. Not my wolf. She was still silent, still curled in that dark place. Something older than her. Something that lived in my blood before I ever had a wolf at all.

"He's right, Seraphina." Corvina drifted out in her nightgown, her voice dripping with sweetness. Her scent preceded her, that honeysuckle and warm vanilla so thick it coated the back of my throat, and beneath it, faint but unmistakable, the chemical undertone of heat-amplifying herbs. She had been using them. I could smell it now, under the sex and the sweat. She had manufactured this. "Theron and I are just taking care of a physical need, that's all. I swear it won't affect your mating bond. As long as he's willing to look after me and my pup going forward, I'll be perfectly content."

She tilted her chin up and smiled. A deliberate baring of her throat that was meant to look submissive but landed as mockery. She knew exactly what she was doing.

"Really. I would never try to steal him from you. I know the one he truly loves is you."

The hickeys on her neck and chest burned into my vision like needles, the pain driving straight from my eyes down into the pit of my stomach. Bite marks. Not just hickeys. He had bitten her. Not deep enough to bond, but deep enough to claim. Deep enough that every wolf who saw her would smell him on her for days.

I looked at the two of them standing there, and I couldn't form a single word.

My throat had closed over. My hands hung at my sides, and I realized distantly that they were trembling, a fine vibration that started in my fingers and traveled up through my wrists, my forearms, settling somewhere in the hollow of my chest where the mating bond pulsed its sick, infected warmth. I didn't know people like this existed. People whose sense of right and wrong was so thoroughly, spectacularly shattered.

And somehow, they were the ones I'd ended up with.

In that moment, the thought of severing the bond erupted in my mind like a flare.

Five years of mating, and I had never once considered it. I had suppressed my bloodline, muted my scent with wolfsbane tinctures until even my own wolf could barely recognize me, poured the Silvercrest fortune and every alliance my family name carried into building the Ironmaw Pack from nothing. Five years of disappearing into the role of quiet, submissive mate. Five years of watching him grow powerful on resources he never once questioned the origin of. But the first time the thought came, it came with a force that nearly knocked me sideways.

And my wolf. My wolf, who had been silent through all of it, who had curled into that dark unreachable place and refused to surface, finally stirred. Not with grief. Not with rage. With something quieter and far more dangerous. A cold, clear recognition. The kind of stillness that comes right before a predator decides it is finished being prey.

"Theron, I don't know who you are anymore." My voice was quiet, almost calm. "I really don't. Not even a little. You feel like a complete stranger to me."

I smiled, cold and hollow, and took one step back. Then another.

Something flickered across Theron's face. His wolf surfaced behind his eyes for half a second, a flash of amber that was gone before it fully formed. He reached for my arm. "Sera, don't be so petty. I was just helping her out. My love belongs only to you."

I wrenched my arm free.

"Don't touch me. You're filthy."

The words left my mouth and the mating mark on my neck went cold. Not warm, not burning. Cold. Like the bond itself had heard me and flinched.

I turned my back on him and walked down the hallway toward the room that had once been ours. My footsteps were steady. My spine was straight. My wolf walked with me, step for step, rising slowly from wherever she had hidden, pressing against the inside of my ribs like she was reminding me she was still there. Still mine. Still breathing.

Behind me, the mingled scent of scorched iron and cloying honeysuckle hung in the air like something rotting.

I did not look back.

I shook off his hand and walked toward my den chamber like a dead woman walking.

He didn't follow. Behind me, I heard Corvina coaxing him: "Theron, go check on her, please. I'd hate for her to be upset because of me."

"Let her cool down. She loves me too much to stay angry. She'll come around."

Each word landed like a stone. Every step I took felt like dragging my feet through wet concrete. My wolf, who had been clawing at the edges of my ribs since I'd walked in on them, went eerily still. Not calm. The kind of still that comes before something breaks.

And the last five years with Theron began replaying in my mind, scene by scene, like a film I couldn't pause.

I'd met him seven years ago.

His pack had just been established, barely more than a handful of wolves holding contested territory. I hid the fact that I was the sole surviving heir of the Silvercrest bloodline and quietly funneled every alliance, every resource, every territorial connection my family had into building him up. From an Alpha with nothing to his name to one of the most powerful pack leaders in the region.

After we were mated, he treated me like I was the center of his universe.

When I got sick, he sat at my bedside and refused to leave, his wolf pressed against mine through the bond like a warm hand holding me steady.

When I was hungry, he cooked for me himself, making the oatmeal I loved, the kind that was easy on my stomach.

Every time we went out, he held my hand and never let go.

Every Moon Blessing Day, every anniversary, he showed up on time with a gift and a smile.

Then Corvina moved in, and everything changed.

She was his blood-brother's widow. That was the reason. She had no pack, no one else, so he brought her into our territory.

At first it was just small courtesies. Checking in on her. Making sure she was comfortable in the guest quarters. Then came the late-night summons. Her legs were swollen. Her feet were numb. She needed him. Again and again, she pulled him out of our bed in the middle of the night, her Omega distress pheromones threading through the halls like smoke under a door.

On our mating anniversary, he left me sitting alone at the feast hall and rushed to the Healing Hall to sit with her through a prenatal examination.

I got jealous. Of course I did. But every time, Theron would take my hands and say with absolute conviction: "Her mate saved my life once. His widow and his pup, how can I just abandon them? Seraphina, you're the kindest wolf I know. You understand, don't you?"

Because I loved him, I trusted him. I trusted us. I trusted what we'd built.

Until I saw him in bed with her.

Then I knew exactly how wrong I'd been.

If he wanted to warm another woman's body, he could have her. I was done.

When morning came, I wiped the dried tears from my face and made two calls on the communicator.

The first was to the Healing Hall. "I need to schedule a procedure. As soon as possible."

The second was to my mother. "Mom, Theron cheated on me. I'm dissolving the bond and coming home. Father's been wanting to hand the pack leadership over to me, right? I'll be there soon."

Lady Elara's voice didn't waver. "I told you from the start. You two come from different bloodlines. Mating with him was never going to end well. Come home. As for the pup, if you want to keep it, keep it. The Silvercrest line could use an heir."

I hung up and tore the writ in my hands clean in half.

Fifty billion gold moons. My father had transferred it to me. It was supposed to fund Theron's territorial expansion into the northern borderlands.

He would never see a single moon of it now.

I dug out our mating contract and was about to call the Pack Council's bond-dissolution office when my communicator buzzed twice. A message appeared in the spirit network group that Theron's inner circle had created to welcome me into their fold years ago.

Congrats, sister! The big day's finally here!

Congrats, congrats! It's been a long road! We're heading to the Healing Hall right now to celebrate with you and Theron.

I frowned, about to ask if they'd sent this to the wrong thread, when a third message appeared.

You idiot, wrong group! This is the FIRST mate's group. The little Luna is in the other one! Delete it, quick!

All three messages vanished in seconds.

My fingers tightened around the communicator until my knuckles went white.

A dull ache spread through my chest. Then a sharper one twisted low in my belly, and somewhere beneath my ribs my wolf stirred, pressing outward against my skin with a slow, grinding pressure, like something trying to surface through stone.

It had never occurred to me that there was another group. A second one. One I wasn't in.

Every time Theron's pack brothers saw me, they smiled and called me their Alpha's mate. Warm. Respectful. Familiar. They lowered their gazes in deference. They tilted their heads when they greeted me.

And the whole time, behind my back, they'd already given Corvina a title of her own.

How ironic.

I yanked the bedroom door open and stormed out. The moment I reached the main hall of the den, one of the house wolves hurried over, her head lowered, eyes averted. "Luna Ironmaw, you're awake! The second Luna went into labor suddenly. Alpha Ironmaw took her to the Healing Hall!"

I stopped dead. My wolf, who had been coiled tight and restless beneath my ribs since the moment I'd seen that group chat, went utterly still.

"'Second Luna'?" The words came out quiet. Dangerously quiet. "Who told you to call her that?"

I grabbed the ceremonial stone vase beside me and hurled it to the floor. It shattered across the slate, fragments spinning into the walls. The sound cracked through the den like a bone breaking. My chest heaved. The house wolf flinched so hard she nearly dropped to her knees, her wolf's submission rolling off her in waves.

"It was Ms. Thornveil's instructions," she whispered, throat bared. "She said Alpha Ironmaw agreed that she's also the lady of the den. You're the first Luna, and she's the second..."

She was still talking when I snatched my keys and drove to the Healing Hall.

By the time I arrived, Corvina had already delivered.

The scent hit me before I reached the room. Scorched iron and dry cedar bark, Theron's scent, threaded so tightly with that cloying honeysuckle-and-vanilla sweetness that they'd become almost indistinguishable. My stomach turned. My wolf pressed against the inside of my chest, not growling, not whimpering. Just pressing. Like she was trying to brace me for what came next.

The room was packed. Nearly all of Theron's inner circle had crowded inside, laughing and talking over each other like it was a celebration. Their combined scents filled the corridor, warm and boisterous, the smell of pack wolves at ease. As if this were a bonding ceremony. As if this were something to honor.

"Theron, does your mate even know Corvina's had the pup?"

"Don't bring her up." Theron was leaning over the bassinet, teasing the sleeping newborn with one finger. The pup smelled of milk and new wool and a faint trace of pine, clean and innocent and entirely unaware of the wreckage his arrival had caused. A soft, doting smile tugged at the corner of Theron's mouth. "This pup's gorgeous."

"Seriously, Theron. If you look closely, he even looks a little like you!"

"Keep it down. If Seraphina hears that kind of talk, she'll overthink everything."

Corvina lay propped against the Healing Hall pillows, her makeup still flawless, not a strand of hair out of place. She didn't look like a she-wolf who'd just labored through a birth. The honeysuckle scent was thicker here, almost suffocating, layered so heavily it made the air feel syrupy. "Overthink what? Whether she agrees or not, I'm keeping my promise. This pup will carry the Ironmaw name and be added to the pack bloodline registry."

"But you'd have to sever the mate bond with Seraphina first. That doesn't feel right..."

"It's not a big deal. Once the pup's registered under my name, I'll sever the bond with Corvina and re-bond with Seraphina. Simple. If she won't agree, I'll just do it without her knowing."

Corvina sniffled, dabbing at the corner of her eye with practiced delicacy. "Seraphina is so kindhearted. She'll say yes. I'd be so grateful to her. Honestly, however long I get to carry the Luna title, even just on paper, I'd be more than happy."

"Relax. You all know how devoted she is to Theron. Remember when she went to that alliance summit and sang for those visiting Alphas just so Theron could secure the territory pact?"

"And that time Theron was brought to the Healing Hall for a gut infection? She thought it was something serious. Got on her knees and begged the moon-healer, then knelt outside the healing chamber for hours until the treatment was over. She's bound to him body and soul. She'd never leave. A little thing like this is nothing compared to losing Theron."

"Exactly what I was thinking."

Theron's lips curved. He pulled Corvina closer against him, his arm tightening around her shoulders. His Alpha aura settled over the room, warm and satisfied, the aura of a wolf who believed he owned everything in it. "No matter what it takes, I'll give Corvina and this pup a home."

I stood in the doorway and watched the man I'd loved for seven years hold another woman in his arms.

My fingers curled at my sides until my nails bit into my palms.

Something deep inside me made a sound. Not my voice. My wolf. A low, thin keening that vibrated through my bones and never reached the air, the kind of sound a wolf makes when it finally understands that the bond it has been pouring itself into has been hollow for a long, long time. I felt it in my sternum, in the backs of my teeth, in the place behind my ribs where the mate bond lived. The bond that should have been a golden thread between us. It had been fraying for years, I realized. I just hadn't wanted to look at it. And now, standing in that doorway with the scent of scorched iron and honeysuckle filling my lungs like poison, I could feel every remaining thread pulling taut, ready to snap.

He had it all figured out. He'd been planning to give Corvina a home all along.

Well then. Who was I to stand in his way?

I stepped into the doorway and spoke quietly. "A boy? Congratulations."

The moment I appeared, every face in the room went white. The laughter died. The warmth in the air curdled. I could smell the shift, the sharp spike of unease cutting through the easy camaraderie like a blade through cloth. Every wolf in that room felt it: the Luna had heard everything.

Theron released Corvina instantly and crossed the room in three quick strides. His scent shifted, the acrid edge buried beneath something deliberately softened, the way an Alpha smooths his aura when he's trying to manage a situation. His voice turned gentle, almost tender. "What are you doing here? You're carrying a pup. You should be resting at the den."

"I heard everything you just said."

I looked up at him. My wolf was silent now. Perfectly, terribly silent, the way a forest goes silent before a storm breaks. I held his gaze and did not lower mine.

"You want to sever our mate bond so you can register Corvina's pup under the Ironmaw bloodline."

"Seraphina, I just feel sorry for her. You know she has no pack. I'm only doing this because she was Fenris's mate. He was like a blood-brother to me. He saved my life..."

He scrambled to explain, the words tumbling out with that practiced urgency I'd heard a hundred times before, the voice he used when he needed me to be understanding, to be patient, to be the good mate who swallowed her pain so he could have what he wanted. I cut him off, my expression blank. "I agree. Let's sever the bond."

"Really?"

His eyes lit up. He hadn't expected me to say yes that easily.

And there it was. The truth of it, laid bare in the fraction of a second before he remembered to rearrange his face. Not relief that I understood. Not guilt. Not even surprise, not really. Joy. Pure, uncomplicated joy, bright as a flame in his eyes, there and gone in a heartbeat. The joy of a wolf who had just been handed exactly what he wanted without having to fight for it.

My wolf did not keen again. She did not howl, did not snarl, did not throw herself against the cage of my ribs. She simply lay down. Quietly. The way a wolf lies down when it has decided that something is dead and there is no longer any reason to stand guard over the body.

I held his gaze and felt nothing at all.

His friends all wore expressions that said they'd seen this coming a mile away.

"Really."

I nodded. "Have the dissolution documents drawn up and signed for me. Theron, the pack you lead now is one we built together. If we're severing the bond, I'm taking half the territory. That's fair, isn't it?"

"More than fair. Take all of it if you want. It's just a formality anyway!"

He shot his packmates a cocky look, and the whole group burst into applause and low howls of approval.

"Theron, you absolute legend! Living the dream with a she-wolf on each arm. Can't even be jealous!"

My eyes were ice. He didn't notice.

Something deep in my chest stirred, a cold, quiet thing. My wolf, who had been silent for so long, pressed against the inside of my ribs. Not in grief. In focus.

Corvina said she was hungry. She wanted some bone broth.

Theron rounded up his packmates and left immediately to get it for her. On his way out, he turned back to me. "Sera, are you hungry? Want me to grab you something?"

"I'm fine. Don't bother."

"Then take good care of Corvina for me, will you? She said her chest is sore from the milk coming in..."

The door clicked shut. Just the two of us now.

The room changed the instant they left. The air thinned. Corvina's scent, that honeysuckle and warm vanilla layered over something cloying and faintly chemical, spread without restraint, no longer tempered by the performance she put on for Theron. It was the scent of a she-wolf who had stopped pretending.

She turned to me with a look that was pure provocation.

"Well, well. I have to say, I'm impressed. Your mate is bedding another wolf, talking about dissolving your bond to register someone else's pup under his bloodline, and you don't even flinch? That's some next-level doormat energy."

I watched her in silence.

Her lips curled. One by one, she undid the ties of her healing gown.

"You know what the difference between us is, Seraphina?"

The figure she revealed made my brow tighten.

"Your body? Let's see how long that lasts after you're done nursing."

"Oh, I won't be nursing. You think these are natural? Why would I ruin them? You know what Theron told me?" She tilted her chin up. "He said you're boring. No fun at all. And your body doesn't compare to mine. I'm an E cup, sweetheart."

So even her chest was fake.

Theron really had no standards.

"Are you done?"

"Not even close. I'm telling you to get lost. Stop standing between us, or I'll make your life a living hell. My mate is dead. I need a new one, and Theron is the Alpha I picked. I'm never letting him go"

Before she could finish, my hand was already in the air.

The slap cracked across her face.

The sound rang through the Healing Hall room like a thunderclap. Sharp. Clean. Final. My wolf surged to the surface so fast my vision flickered gold at the edges, and for one heartbeat the room smelled like ozone before lightning, cutting straight through the cloying sweetness of Corvina's manufactured scent.

"You hit me?!" She froze, one hand flying to her cheek. She lunged to hit me back, but I caught her arm and swung again.

"You"

"Yeah, I hit you." My voice was steady. Low. The kind of steady that five years of silence had forged into something harder than iron. "That first one was for being shameless enough to seduce another she-wolf's mate."

A second slap landed clean. The crack echoed off the stone walls, and I felt my wolf settle into my spine like a blade sliding into its sheath. Not raging. Not desperate. Present. For the first time in years, fully and completely present.

"That one's for climbing into a bonded Alpha's bed when your own mate hasn't been dead five moon cycles and you were carrying his pup to term."

Then a third. I put the weight of my bloodline behind it. Not the meek, muted Omega who had swallowed wolfsbane tinctures to keep her scent small and her wolf quiet. The daughter of the Silvercrest line. The Alpha-blooded Omega whose wolf had been caged so long it had forgotten the shape of its own teeth.

"And that's for destroying a pack bond and not feeling an ounce of remorse."

Three slaps. She stood there, stunned stupid.

The red marks bloomed across her cheek like brands. My hand didn't shake. My breathing didn't waver. My wolf sat behind my ribs, calm and watchful, and for one crystalline moment I understood what it felt like to stop being afraid.

Then she screamed, clawing her way off the bed. "Seraphina, I'll kill you!"

She shoved me hard. I hit the ground, and a sharp pain shot through my lower abdomen. Dread flooded through me instantly. Cold, immediate, animal dread that had nothing to do with Corvina and everything to do with the life I was carrying. I gritted my teeth and dragged myself up, bracing against the wall to stay on my feet. My wolf whimpered, curling inward, pressing protectively toward the place where the pain bloomed.

She swung at me, her palm connecting with my face. "You hit me? You think I'm someone you can push around? Those three slaps? I'm paying them back double!"

She raised her hand for a second strike, but footsteps echoed in the hallway outside.

Her arm froze mid-swing.

The shift was instantaneous. So fast it would have been impressive if it weren't sickening.

In one fluid motion, she snatched the pup from the bassinet, dropped him onto the floor from a low height, then threw herself down beside him, curling over the infant and wailing as if the world were ending.

The pup's screams tangled with hers, filling the room. The tiny thing reeked of milk and new wool and a faint ghost of pine, Fenris Greyfang's blood crying out from a body too small to understand what had just happened to it.

I stood there clutching my stomach, my body locked in place. I couldn't process what I'd just witnessed.

Corvina had hurt her own pup.

He'd just been born, and she'd thrown him on the ground without a second thought. No wolf, no matter how broken, no matter how far fallen, did that. Even rogues guarded their young. Even the mad ones. The instinct was older than language, older than pack law, older than the Moon Goddess herself.

And Corvina had snuffed it out like a candle flame between her fingers, because footsteps were coming and she needed a story to tell.

"I'm sorry, Seraphina. I was wrong. I wouldn't dare dream of mating with Theron anymore. I'll take the pup and go far away. Please, I'm begging you, just stop hurting us, okay?"

"What are you doing? Putting on another act?"

The pain in my abdomen was getting worse. A dark premonition crept through me, and deep in my chest, my wolf stirred from her long silence. Not in anger. In fear. She pressed against my ribs from the inside, whimpering low, her body curling around something she was trying to protect. Terrified that something was actually happening to my pup, I moved toward the door to find a healer, but it swung open before I could reach it.

A crowd stood in the doorway. At the front was Theron.

The moment he saw Corvina and the pup on the floor, the infant screaming in raw, bloodcurdling wails that cut through the room like a blade across bone, the color drained from his face. His Alpha aura surged outward in a violent pulse, thick enough to press against the walls, and the wolves behind him flinched back a step. He dropped the bowl of bone broth in his hands without a second thought and rushed over to scoop the pup up.

"What happened? We were gone ten minutes. What the hell happened?"

"Theron..."

Corvina lifted her face. The handprints across her cheek were vivid and unmistakable.

She was trembling, tears streaming down her face. The cloying sweetness of her scent, that honeysuckle and warm vanilla, thickened in the air until it was almost suffocating, wrapping around every wolf in the room like a snare. "It's my fault. I never should have come to you for help. If I weren't so afraid my pup would grow up without a pack, I'd never have degraded myself like this! Ms. Silvercrest, if you didn't want me and Theron to register the bond and place the pup under his bloodline, then why did you pretend to agree and then turn around and try to force us out? Hitting me was one thing, but throwing a newborn pup on the floor?"

Her shrill sobs and accusations sent a chill through the room.

Everyone turned to look at me. "Seraphina, you..."

"Seraphina!"

Theron walked toward me with the pup in his arms and struck me across the face.

The blow sent my vision black. I nearly passed out.

My wolf howled. Not outward, not in any way anyone else could hear. The sound was inside me, reverberating through my bones, through the hollow place where the mate bond lived. It was a sound I had never heard her make before. Not rage. Something worse. Something that had no name, a keening that started in the marrow and didn't stop.

I was already unsteady on my feet. My body crumpled and I hit the floor.

The stone was cold beneath my palms. The impact jarred through my knees, my wrists, my belly. The pain in my abdomen sharpened into something bright and terrible. I pressed both hands against my stomach, hard, while cold sweat beaded across my forehead and rolled down my temples. Inside me, my wolf had gone completely still. Not calm. The kind of still that comes before something breaks apart.

"I thought you were actually being generous when you agreed to the severing! How can you be this two-faced? The pup is so small. He isn't even a day old, and you threw him on the ground! You're going to be a mother yourself. Aren't you afraid your own pup will pay for what you've done?"

My cheek burned. I turned my head slowly and saw the hatred carved into his face. I could barely process what I'd just heard.

For the sake of Corvina's pup, he had cursed ours.

The mate bond between us, that fraying thread I had held onto for five years, pulsed once. Weak. Sickly. Like a heartbeat trying to keep going when the body around it had already given up. My wolf pressed her nose against it from the inside, and I felt her recoil. His end of the bond tasted like ash. Like scorched iron gone cold.

"Yeah, Seraphina, how could you do that? She just gave birth. You shouldn't have hit her!"

"No wonder Theron says he's more comfortable with Corvina. Seraphina's temper is way too much."

They all talked over each other, a chorus of noise that split my skull open. My breathing turned shallow and ragged. Their voices blurred into a single wall of sound, and beneath it, I could hear my own pulse. Too fast. Too thin. My wolf was pacing now, frantic circles in the dark, her claws scraping against something inside me that felt like it was coming apart.

"Enough! All of you, shut up! 'Seraphina' and 'Corvina'? Do none of you have any sense of right and wrong? This isn't the dark ages. An Alpha doesn't get to keep a mate and a mistress! Theron broke the bond. That's on him! And even if I did hit Corvina, she had it coming!"

My outburst stunned the room into silence. For one breath, the Alpha aura that had been pressing down on everyone wavered. Theron's eyes narrowed.

"Theron was only kind to me and the pup because of my late mate!" Corvina sobbed, crawling to Theron's legs. The scent of vanilla and honeysuckle surged again, so thick it coated the back of my throat. "The pup fell from a height. I don't even know if he'll survive. Theron, please, don't waste any more time. Call a healer!"

"Don't be scared. I won't let anything happen to him."

Theron turned to leave with the pup in his arms.

And in that moment, I felt something warm and wet sliding down between my legs.

The sensation froze me with terror.

My wolf went silent. Completely, utterly silent. As if she had stopped breathing. As if she already knew.

I looked down. A shock of red was spreading beneath me.

"Theron, my pup... our pup!"

The words tore out of me, raw and broken, and I reached for the bond. Reached for it with everything I had left. Pulled at it like a rope in the dark, desperate for him to feel what I was feeling, desperate for his wolf to hear mine.

He didn't turn around. He didn't even slow down.

"Seraphina, I've never been more disappointed in you. Get yourself home. I'll be staying at the Healing Hall with Corvina and the pup for the next few days. And you'd better pray her pup is all right. Because if he's not, I won't let you off."

Every last one of them followed him out the door.

The room emptied. The silence that filled it was absolute. Not peaceful. The kind of silence that exists inside a wound.

I stayed on the floor. The cold seeped through my clothes, through my skin, into the place where my wolf had been pacing only moments ago. She wasn't pacing anymore. She lay curled at the bottom of me, nose tucked against her tail, and she would not lift her head. The blood kept spreading, warm against the cold stone, and I pressed my hands harder against my stomach as if I could hold everything inside me together by force.

The bond stretched thin toward the door Theron had walked through. I could still feel him at the far end of it. Moving away. His wolf hadn't even flinched.

My hands wouldn't stop shaking.

But not a single person noticed the blood pooling beneath me.

I lay on the cold stone floor of the Healing Hall, screaming in agony. My wolf thrashed inside me, weak and frantic, clawing at something she couldn't hold on to. No one answered. The corridor stretched empty in both directions, and the sound of my voice came back to me off the walls like something already dead.

"Help... please, save my pup..."

My mother had told me I could keep the child and take her to the Silvercrest ancestral lands. Leave the mate, keep the pup. Those words had been carved into my mind for weeks.

I'd already decided to keep this child.

So why was this happening?

My wolf let out a sound I'd never heard from her before. Low. Broken. Like something tearing at the root. The edges of my vision darkened, and the scent of my own blood filled my nose, sharp and wrong, copper and moonflower twisted together into something that smelled like ending.

As consciousness slipped away, I saw a healer's apprentice passing by the open door. She froze, then rushed in.

"What happened? Someone help! Miss, don't be scared. Why are you here alone? Where's your mate? Do you remember his contact sigil? I'll reach him for you!"

"I... don't have a mate..."

Then everything went black.

My pup was gone.

Four moon cycles along. Just barely formed.

The healer said it would have been a girl.

I stayed in the Healing Hall for three days. My wolf did not speak to me once during that time. She lay curled at the very bottom of my consciousness, utterly still, and I could not tell if she was grieving or if something in her had simply stopped.

In those three days, Theron didn't reach out to me once.

But I saw his announcement on the spirit network.

Blessed with a pup.

Four words. Accompanied by a captured image of a woman and child sleeping, taken from behind. The woman's hair fanned across a pillow. The pup was swaddled in Ironmaw colors.

The comments were flooded with congratulations. Pack members, allied Alphas, wolves I'd personally brokered alliances with on Theron's behalf, all falling over themselves to celebrate.

I stared at that image. The tears came anyway.

They slid down my face and hit the linen sheets without sound. My wolf stirred, barely, like something shifting in deep water. Then went still again.

Some things are simply cruel.

But I was grateful, at least, that I'd found out before it was too late. I could still walk away.

The day I was discharged, a young healer helped me gather my things.

"Ms. Silvercrest, how come no one's visited you these past few days? Are you sure you'll be okay returning to the den alone?"

"I'm fine. Thank you all for taking care of me. I'm feeling much better."

I managed a smile and walked out of the room. My body ached in places I couldn't name. My wolf moved with me like a shadow that had lost its shape, present but formless, refusing to settle.

I hadn't gone more than a few steps when I heard the healers whispering behind me.

"Poor thing. A lost pup, and not a single soul by her side. Where's her mate?"

"She said she doesn't have one. Probably lost him. A broken bond, maybe. Life really isn't fair, is it? You know the she-wolf in the next chamber? Her mate adores her. He's at her bedside every single day, holding the pup. You can tell he's absolutely smitten."

"Oh, I know. That chamber's been a revolving door of visitors. And they're all striking wolves, too. How come I never get that kind of luck?"

They didn't know.

The devoted mate they were gushing about was mine.

I walked to Corvina's door. The scent hit me before I reached the threshold. Honeysuckle and warm vanilla layered over something cloying, something that made my stomach clench. And beneath it, tangled through it like a stain, scorched iron and dry cedar bark. Theron's scent. Woven so deeply into hers that I couldn't separate them.

Sure enough, Theron was lying beside her, asleep. His arm was draped across the bedding. His jaw was slack, his breathing even. He looked peaceful in a way I had never once seen him look beside me.

Corvina had her communicator out, leaning against his chest, capturing image after image. Her lips curved as she angled the screen, adjusting the light.

Theron rolled over and pulled her into his arms, his voice low and groggy. "I thought you said you were tired. Go back to sleep."

"I'm not tired."

She looked up at him, then undid the laces of her sleeping gown and climbed on top of him.

"I want you. Give it to me."

His throat worked as his eyes traced her body.

"You just had a pup. Rest. Don't start something."

"I don't care. I want you."

She leaned down and kissed him.

He pushed at her a few times, halfheartedly. Within seconds, they were tangled together. Her scent thickened in the air, that sweet chemical sweetness flooding the small chamber until it was all I could taste on the back of my tongue.

The sight made my stomach turn.

I spun around and ran. Down the corridor, past the healer's station, through the Healing Hall entrance and out into the cold air. I grabbed the old rowan tree by the gate and threw up until there was nothing left. My body shook. My wolf shook. Something inside me had come loose and I did not know how to put it back.

I never imagined the man I'd loved all these years could be this person.

The moment I got home, I went straight for my documents. The mating dissolution papers. The territorial release forms. Everything I would need.

I was going to the Pack Council.

When my parents had returned to the Silvercrest ancestral lands, I'd stayed behind for Theron. I had muted my bloodline, suppressed my wolf, poured every resource of my heritage into building his pack from nothing, and I had done it because I believed the bond between us was real.

Now it was time to go.