My Husband Called Me Dirty

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While I was with my best friend, Avril, trying on wedding dresses, she suddenly said,

You know, your husband Blake is pretty great in bed.

I froze for a moment, not really processing it yet.

She pointed to a hickey on her chest:

He bit me there last night, in the car. Tell him to be a little gentler next time.

My throat tightened, my fingertips trembling.

Have you no shame?

Her smile didn't falter. She took my hand and placed it on her lower abdomen.

I cant help it, I'm pregnant with Blake's baby.

My body went rigid, my mind exploding.

He really loves you, but he honestly thinks you're dirty.

I gave him my first time, and I've never had an abortion for anyone else, so he promised me a wedding.

I stumbled backward, a pair of warm hands reached out to steady me.

Without thinking, I slapped him.

Blake stopped, his voice casual.

You know everything?

My body trembled, a terrible cold washing over me.

Blake looked at me, pushing his tongue against his cheek.

You and Avril have been best friends for ages. Why cant you be even half as sweet as her?

His tone was no different from before, every word a sharp knife piercing my heart.

Aren't you disgusted? I choked out.

He paused, then smiled, uncaring.

Who told you to be so dirty?

Every time I see your body, I can't help but imagine you beneath other men.

He said, a flicker of disgust in his eyes.

Theres no way Id let my child be born from such a dirty body.

I froze, my ears ringing.

I stared at him, unable to believe it.

Just yesterday, hed held me close, whispering "I love you" over and over into my ear.

Hed sworn he wouldn't care about my past, no matter what it was.

Do you know what youre saying?

My voice trembled violently, tears spilling out uncontrollably.

He lifted a hand, gently wiping away my tears, and sighed.

I know.

Its not that I dont love you, but I really wanted to know what it felt like to be with a virgin. Why did you lie to me first?

He took Avrils hand.

Avril is your best friend, she won't fight you for me. She even promised that our child can call you Mom.

You should thank her.

I watched their fingers intertwine, my vision blurring.

Yesterday, I found out I was pregnant.

Id invited them to dinner, wanting to share the good news with the two most important people in my life.

But as soon as they met, they ignored me and started bickering with each other.

Avril accused Blake of not spending enough time with me. Blake thought she was meddling.

I was already used to their dynamic, and I pushed my own pregnancy news to the back of my mind.

When dinner ended, they were still arguing about who hed spend the weekend with.

But now, they stood together, telling me they were having a baby.

Seeing me gasp for breath in pain, Blake stepped forward anxiously, trying to take my hand.

As long as you dont make a fuss, we can go back to how things were.

Yesterday, after Avril and I argued, I told you I had an emergency at work. Actually, we were having sex in the car.

She was wearing a red lingerie set, I just couldn't resist.

My heart felt like a huge hole had been torn through it, through which freezing winds howled.

My teeth chattered. Avril is my best friend!

Then, I looked at Avril. Why?

Avril took a step closer, grasping my hand.

Precisely because were friends, I won't threaten your position.

Blake and I were just enjoying some excitement for a bit.

In our hearts, you'll always be the most important one.

My fingertips trembled, my chest heavy with a bitter ache.

Blake casually kissed my cheek.

Cheer up. Werent you most excited to see Avril in her wedding dress?

Pick out a bridesmaid dress for yourself while youre at it.

The diamonds on the wedding dress reflected a blinding light, stinging my eyes. Tears blurred my vision.

I raised my hand again, slapping him across the face.

Youre both so dirty, so disgusting!

The words had barely left my mouth when I was violently shoved, crashing into the corner of a table. A sharp pain shot through me.

Avrils crying voice reached my ears.

We're dirty?

Lester, you went out of your way to seduce Johnny and slept with him. What right do you have to call me dirty?

Blake looked at me coldly.

Calm down, Lester.

Blake left with Avril.

But I sank powerlessly into the abyss of my memories.

Avril and I had been best friends since childhood.

When she was seventeen, her family went through a tragedy. Her father passed away, and her mother remarried, taking her with her.

But Avril grew increasingly unhappy, crying to me that her stepfathers son, Johnny, treated her terribly.

I felt sorry for her plight, living under someone else's roof, and often went to keep her company.

Until her birthday.

I used the money Id saved for a long time to buy her a dress shed wanted. But when I arrived at her house, after drinking a glass of juice, I lost consciousness.

When I opened my eyes again, all I felt was an unbearable pain.

Johnny had violated me.

And Avril was crying, holding me, her harsh words fiercely scolding Johnny, ringing in my ears.

Fate wouldnt let me go. Just as I thought about giving up and dying, I found out I was pregnant.

My parents took me to get an abortion and moved to another city, but the pain didn't fade with time.

When I met Blake, my depression hadn't healed, and I was consumed by insecurity.

He always looked at me with tender eyes, then smiled and pinched my cheek.

Why are you always so sad?

I looked at his bright eyes, afraid to easily accept him.

But he would stay by my side, holding my hand and saying, Its okay, it wasn't your fault.

He was like a light, healing me, helping me let down my guard.

The day we made our relationship official, he reassured me, promising to protect me forever.

From dating to marriage, Blake was consistently good, bringing everything wonderful for me to choose from.

But now...

Tears streamed down my face.

I thought my life had started anew.

Yet the two people I loved most had conspired to tear open my old, deep wounds, and then rubbed salt in them.

The heartbreaking pain jolted me awake.

I cried until I choked, feeling numb.

When my eyes were so swollen I could only open them a slit, my phone rang.

It was messages from Blake and Avril.

[Lester, go to the hospital and get some miscarriage prevention medication.]

[We played a bit too rough, and it scared Avril's baby.]

Avril, meanwhile, only sent a intimate photo of her and Blake.

I stared at the photo, my breathing shaky.

My phone rang loudly in the silent room.

Blakes satisfied voice pierced my eardrums.

Lester, did you see the message?

I squeezed out a sound from my throat, every word ending with a trembling tremor.

Blake, how can you be so disgusting?

Aren't you afraid I'll go crazy and kill both of you?

There was a moment of silence on the other end.

Then Avrils light laugh came through.

Lester, youre so weak. Even a loud voice makes you burst into tears. How could you ever have the guts to kill anyone?

It's not like you haven't killed before; you killed Johnny's baby.

But youd never hurt your husbands baby, would you?

She urged me to hurry with the medication, then hung up.

Listening to her confident tone, I suddenly laughed.

The reason I was afraid of loud noises was because of Johnnys wild laughter on the day he assaulted me.

It was a traumatic stress response.

But I wasn't even afraid of death anymore. I wouldn't let them off easy.

I went to them. Pushing open the door, I saw clothes scattered all over the floor.

The two of them sat on the sofa, kissing passionately.

The wet, smacking sounds of their kissing constantly pricked my eardrums.

I gripped my phone tightly, slowly walking closer.

Avril saw me and provocatively increased her panting.

Perhaps seeking more thrills, she brought up what happened years ago.

Blake, when I found out Lester seduced Johnny

They were lying in my bed, kissing just like this.

Listening to her shameless slander, my hand trembled.

Hatred surged, and rage burned away the last remnants of my sanity.

I held up my phone, pointing the camera at their flushed, dazed faces.

I held back my tears, pulled my lips into a smile, and spoke coldly into the camera.

This is a live stream of catching my husband and my best friend cheating.

You two, feel free to perform.

Blakes body stiffened. He instinctively pushed Avrils head into his embrace.

The next second, he reached out and violently knocked my phone away.

Lester, what the hell are you doing?

I didn't move, my gaze fixed on his wrist.

Where his veins bulged, there was a newly tattooed, obscure string of letters.

I instantly felt dizzy, and the image of that grinning man flashed before my eyes again.

He had an identical tattoo.

That wrist had once choked my neck, tracing every inch of my skin over and over.

I bit down on my teeth, my voice trembling violently.

Blake, what is that?

Blake glanced at his wrist and curled his lips into a smirk.

Avril said you like men with tattoos on their wrists.

I snapped my head up, meeting Avrils challenging gaze.

The tightly strung wire in my mind suddenly snapped.

I grabbed the knife from the table and held it against Avrils throat.

My hand was shaking, and I couldn't stop sobbing.

You did this on purpose, didnt you?

You deliberately made Blake get a tattoo identical to Johnnys, just to sicken me.

Avrils face changed, but she still looked up and met my eyes.

Its just a tattoo, whats the big deal?

I was on the verge of collapsing, and my hands involuntarily tightened.

Blood welled up, but Avril smiled.

A sudden, powerful force shoved me away, and the slap across my face made my cheek burn.

Lester, are you crazy?

My eyes were blurry with tears, meeting Blakes furious gaze.

Yes, Im crazy!

Saying that, I struggled to my feet, laughing through my tears, bending at the waist.

Do you know why Avril made you get this tattoo?

Just as I was about to speak, Avril suddenly cried out in pain, and blood flowed from beneath her.

Blakes face drastically changed. He no longer cared about my words.

He quickly scooped Avril into his arms, using his elbow to forcefully hit my chest, pushing me out of the way.

Blake stared at me coldly.

If anything happens to the baby, I wont let you off.

He strode away, not sparing me another glance.

I fell to the ground, drained of strength, my heart feeling as if it had been ripped in half.

But my tears had long since dried up.

I stumbled out of there, feeling dazed. As soon as I stepped outside, my vision went black, and I completely lost consciousness.

When I woke up again, I was in a hospital room.

The nurse taking care of me said Id had a miscarriage.

She called my family, but no one answered.

No ones here to look after you. What will you do?

I lay in bed, tears soaking the pillow. My parents were hundreds of miles away.

In this city, Blake and Avril were the only people close enough to be considered family.

But neither of them showed up.

I only received photos from Avril.

They were embracing and kissing intimately, carelessly.

I tormented myself, looking at the photos over and over.

Jealousy and hatred burned inside me relentlessly.

How could those two be happy while trampling on my pain?

I wouldn't accept it. I sent the old pregnancy test results, which I'd kept for a long time, to Blake.

He didnt reply. It wasn't until late afternoon that he pushed open my hospital room door.

His gaze was heavy, falling on my lower abdomen.

When did you find out?

I curled my lips into a sarcastic smile.

The day Avril was trying on wedding dresses. I wanted to tell you then.

He didn't speak, just lit one cigarette after another.

Smoke shrouded his eyes, hiding his conflicted expression.

After a long time, I heard his almost indifferent voice.

Just get rid of it.

My child can only be born from a clean body.

Avril and I have discussed it. Our child will only call you Mom.

All the blood in my body turned to ice. I mechanically looked up and met his gaze.

He walked to the bedside, taking my hand and squeezing it in his palm.

Isnt this good? We still both love you.

My stomach churned instantly. I violently pushed him away and leaned over the bed, vomiting.

He frowned, his voice turning cold.

Ive already scheduled your abortion procedure.

As his words fell, a doctor pushed open the door.

They forcibly grabbed my arms.

I couldnt fight back, tears streamed down my cheeks and splattered on the floor.

Blake, Im asking you one last time. Do you really not want this baby?

His eyes seemed to hold a flicker of reluctance, but his voice was a resolute, definite refusal.

Lester, dont make a scene.

I suddenly laughed, shaking off their grip like a madwoman.

Under everyones stunned gaze, I resolutely climbed out the window.

In the moment of freefall, I saw Blakes horrified expression.

I smiled, fantasizing almost hysterically.

If I fell and was smashed to pieces, would he regret it?

Would he and Avril be wracked with guilt, unable to sleep for the rest of their lives?

But falling from the third floor wouldn't kill me.

Several of my ribs broke, piercing my lungs.

The excruciating physical pain meant I couldn't die, but I couldn't truly live either.

After the emergency treatment, Blake sat beside me.

Was it worth it?

Lester, the baby was gone already. Whats the point of scaring people by jumping out a window?

His voice was laced with impatience and annoyance.

As if I was a burden he could never shake off.

I managed a bitter smile, my voice raw.

What good would scaring you do?

Blake, youre an asshole.

An asshole who couldn't even accept his own child.

The patience vanished from his face, replaced by endless coldness.

Blame yourself for not being more careful.

No matter how much someone forced you, you still opened your legs.

A single dismissive sentence denied everything from the past, each word a sharp knife torturing my heart.

I suddenly felt exhausted.

Lets break up.

Ill let you and Avril be together.

He froze, staring at me blankly for a long time without making a sound.

I didn't look at him, pulling out my phone and calling Avril.

She arrived quickly.

Blake, go outside for a bit. Lester and I need to talk.

He looked at me, and in the end, said nothing. Only the two of us remained in the room.

I looked at her, my voice ethereal.

Are you satisfied? Then and now, you've destroyed me.

She smiled, a hint of tears in her eyes.

I didn't want to do it.

But only by giving you to Johnny could I escape.

I closed my eyes. My heart, which should have been aching, felt numb.

She continued.

Lester, Ive always felt guilty towards you.

Thats why I won't completely steal Blake away.

Its just a game. Once Im done, Ill give him back to you.

Years of accumulated hatred erupted instantly.

I suddenly laughed, this time without hesitation.

Dragging my weakened body, I lunged at Avril.

With a powerful thrust, I plunged the cold, gleaming knife into her stomach.

She screamed for help in pain.

When Blake pushed open the door, Avril had already fainted.

All the color drained from his face. He violently kicked me away.

Lester, youre trying to kill her! Are you crazy?

I wiped the blood from my face, my voice eerily calm.

She owed me this.

Blakes grim gaze fell upon my face.

He picked up Avril, who was covered in blood, and gritted his teeth.

This isnt over.

But I slapped the signed divorce papers onto his chest.

Between you and me, our scores are settled.

He stared at the signature page, his eyes trembling.

Lester, are you serious?

He was about to say more, but Avril in his arms groaned in pain.

The baby will the baby be okay

The panic in his eyes vanished. He took a deep breath.

Well talk when I get back.

This time, he didn't hesitate.

I suppressed the heartache, letting out a bleak laugh.

That day would never come.

I wiped away my tears, ready to head straight to the airport.

But as I stepped out, I bumped into someone, and my body uncontrollably trembled, my steps faltering.

Avrils baby was gone.

But Blake was absent-minded, frequently thinking about the divorce papers.

After staying until Avril woke up, he felt increasingly uneasy. He turned and rushed to find me.

But as he pushed open the door.

The scene that met his eyes made him utterly collapse.